This week in Matthew’s life…

All week I’ve been thinking about some really interesting posts to write here on the ol’ bloggy blog, and I started drafting one of them. However, I have yet to finish writing it, so I’m going to do a short update on some current goings on!

Currently listening to Galavant

Once we caught up on Game of Thrones, I introduced Steven to Galavant! It’s like The Princess Bride but funnier, Game of Thrones but fewer boobs and blood, and Ella Enchanted all rolled into one musical sitcom that’s simply delightful!

(That’s right, it’s a musical. And if you don’t like that, then you don’t understand happiness and joy! You monster!! 👹)

Since we started watching the show (we finished season one already!) we’ve both had the songs stuck in our heads and we can’t get them out! Especially the main theme. (I listen to the soundtrack quite often so I am quite familiar with the lyrics, too!) It’s both super fun and kinda annoying. Not annoying in a serious way that will end with me being rightfully accused of murder, but just kinda like a stray hair that won’t be tamed.

Currently obsessed with Cities: Skylines

I’ve mentioned it before and I will most deffos mention it again…
…I love city building games! Especially Cities: Skylines!

This week I’ve been filling in my newest city with more dense neighbourhoods and details for all of my sims to enjoy in their simulated lives. ☺️ This current city, Las Cruz, is one of the most intricate cities I’ve built yet thanks to the lessons I’ve learned from previous cities and adding a few mods from the Steam Workshop.

I’ve also been wanting to start making videos about my cities for YouTube, kinda like a “let’s play” series, but with a little bit of an improvised story about the city or something–very silly and Matthew-esque.

I really need and want to take a break from city building though.

Currently watching Game of Thrones and Star Trek: Discovery

I started watched Game of Thrones a few years ago with my geeky friends in my hometown. Rachel and Jessica introduced me to the series, as well as Galavant among others, and about a month ago I introduced it to Steven. We were determined to get him caught up on all seven seasons (70-ish hours) before the premiere of season 8 this past Sunday. However, we were also trying to be good about our TV habits and not go too crazy. HA!!

Rewind to last Friday (the Friday before season 8 started) when we were realizing that we were barely going to be able to watch everything in time. In fact, we missed the premiere by 2 hours even though we didn’t end up sleeping Saturday night or Sunday morning! That’s right, we stayed up all weekend and didn’t quite make it!

Oh well, we still watched the premiere after that all. But the whole weekend was so intense and overwhelming! Really fun though–I haven’t binged so hard in a long while. I got quite the thrill! 😜

And last night (this Friday) was the finale of Discovery. What a crazy season two we’ve had! It’s all come to an end already… and I haven’t watched it yet. I really don’t want it to end even if I’m left wondering what happens next. (The next sentence kinda contains softcore spoilers.) Everyone’s about to sacrifice themselves to protect all sentient, organic life from complete obliteration by some misbehaving AI and I still don’t know what happens to them all. But that’s alright because I’d rather be left with this cliffhanger than be left without new Trek episodes until the fall.

Also, I’m waiting for a friend to watch it with us. Then I’ll have the answers I seek.

Currently thinking about measles

It’s scary here in Metro Vancouver right now. There’s an outbreak of measles and because I’m immunocompromised… I’m at greater risk of infection even though I was vaccinated!

I know that the chances of my contracting measles is very low and I’ll probably be okie dokie, but I have to rely on everyone else having been vaccinated so the disease can’t spread around the city and reach me. Which is something that’s proved kinda anxiety inducing. Especially considering that vaccination rates are lower than what’s necessary to be effective in BC and in many parts of Canada and North America. (Although, recent outbreaks have prompted more people to get vaccinated, which is very encouraging!)

Just this past week there was a new confirmed case of measles in the city. The infected person went to a mall while they were contagious but not yet showing symptoms…and I had been in that very mall the evening before. 😵 Sure, close only counts in horseshoes, but what makes it scarier is I was considering going back to the mall the next day–the very day the infected person was there!

I know, I know…it’s unlikely I’ll get measles. But the chance of exposure does go up here in a city that’s experiencing an ongoing outbreak. The point is that I’m not the only immunocompromised person that relies on herd immunity to prevent themselves from contracting any number of highly contagious and preventable diseases, yet some people actively work to remove this important layer of protection. It baffles my mind.

There’s someone on Vancouver Island that’s currently quarantined in their home for 21 days because they are immunocompromised and were exposed to measles at their workplace. They can’t go outside their home for three whole weeks! So please, if you are able to get vaccinated, please make sure your shots are up to date!

Currently finishing this post

Well that’s about it for now. Other than I’m also currently feeling fairly inspired to work on a bunch of projects and ideas rolling around in my head, but I haven’t actually done too much to act on that inspiration yet. I did get books from the library for one thing though, and it’s got me more excited! 🙌 Gotta keep doing things!

Or at least try.


Edit: Oh! I also got a haircut today!

Where to start?

I sometimes have high expectations for myself.

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Okay… very high expectations.

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Yes, yes. I often have unrealistically high expectations for myself.

This blog is one of those things. Even though I don’t end up putting too much effort into what I write on here (most things end up being silly and totally great!), I do tend to let my high expectations prevent me from just writing.

It’s annoying and I don’t like it. I find that it gets in the way of many things and leads to my low-key freaking out or nearly breaking down because I’m not good enough. Or, at the very least, the things I do aren’t good enough.

Question to self: What even is this “good enough”? Good enough for what? For whom? And why?

Even now, as my partner read what I wrote so far, I’m feeling like this post won’t be that good either. I mean, it’s probably because I don’t have a point to make… I started this post as I often do; not knowing what I’m going to type.

Maybe it’s all part of imposter syndrome? Or maybe since I’m generally good at doing a lot of things, I fear that I’ll not do a great job, so instead of doing my best and having it possibly fail, I either intentionally fail and laugh it off as a joke, or I stress about it and worry that whatever I’m doing won’t be good enough.

But again… good enough for what? What standard do I need to meet? Why can’t I just not be worried about this?!?!

Man, I need to chill.

Anyway…

I actually intended to give you an update about my life over the past several months. Let’s do that instead!

Sooo… where to start?

I’m tempted to start at the very beginning… 🎶 A very good place to start! 🎶 etc, etc

Over the past couple of weeks, I was actually surprised with very unexpected visits from three people! One of my aunts was in town and texted me two Fridays ago… and then last Friday my sister came home and we dragged her bags down to the ferry… and also last Friday one of my bestest friends from my home town texted me and we had a wonderful evening with each other and our partners! I hadn’t seen her in almost TWO YEARS!!! It’s crazy!

It’s been quite the time, let me tell you… 😸 and quite the boost for my spirit!

Other than that… I left my position at my cafe, which is really exciting and good for my overall health. (I was going crazy over there!) I kinda miss that place and making drinks for the regular customers, but I don’t miss being in charge and having to deal with all of the manager-type junk by myself.

The one downside is that I should probably start working somewhere else fairly soon. I’ve already applied at IKEA (HA!) and a few other places, but I have no clue what I’ll be doing. It’s an adventure!

Spring is definitely here and summer is speeding towards us! (Us being Vancouver and the surrounding area.) I’m so happy to see life coming back in my surroundings along with the warmer weather. It makes getting outside more pleasant and brings the opportunity for more outdoor activities, such as kayaking, hiking, geocaching, and spraying smokers with water! Can’t wait!

I also have renewed creative juices flowing and new inspiration for projects that I want to work on! I’m really excited about them all, and I can’t wait to share them with the world! It will take some time before I can do that, and I’ll also need to buy some new equipment, but I really want to do more projects. I need to do more projects. I need that outlet.

And after all of that rambling I hope that you’re not left feeling confuzzled and dazed. That’s all for now, so I’ll say bye bye.

See ya later, friends! 👋

Weekly, not daily!

I’m gonna start blogging again. However, instead of writing a new post every single day, I’ll be posting once a week. Unless I feel like there’s more to say, but my weekly minimum post count shall be one.

Over the past few weeks I’ve been clicking through my blog and rediscovering some aspects of my recent history that have helped me to gain a greater sense of place and progress. Some of the posts have also reminded me for what I used to hope and strive. It’s a good exercise, and exactly the point of my *formerly* daily blog.

I hope that by resuming my blog, I’ll exercise my creative mind and aspire to put fingers to plastic in my never ending pursuit of doing stuff. Also, I hope to be more accountable to myself and continue documenting what I’m thinking for future Matthew to reflect upon.

Until next post! 😸

A funny thing happened today…

…but I don’t recall the details.

*shrugs*

Oh, well. You’ll just have to live with the knowledge that there was a funny moment in my day today, the details of which you will not know.

Today was a good day! So very much better than yesterday. Granted, I didn’t have a good night’s sleep last night, and my tummy decided to be a pain this afternoon and evening, but everything else was so good!

I finally got to see a gastroenterologist, which has been such a long time in coming. Things are looking good in getting a better Crohn’s support team established! Which is quite important for me. And I’ve been learning and discovering just how needed this stuff is over the last couple of months with some changes and observations I’ve made in my disease. Such a win!

Other than that, I am not in Vancouver yet. Because of unforeseen circumstances, I will instead be leaving tomorrow morning. Which is perfectly fine with me!

I hope that you’re having a wonderful day, my friend! 😀 If not, here’s a few gifs that might not help at all, but I’m going to include anyway. Maybe it’ll do something for you.

Note to self: Find gifs and put them here.

Note to self: See? I did it. 😑 😀

M3

Another quick one today.

Just gonna check in. I don’t have the mental energy to write something more than an update.

Today has been long and hard. I consider it to be a good day, though. It started with less sleep than I needed. Again. This time was mostly do to me purposely staying up last night. But because I couldn’t sleep Saturday night, and I went to bed late last night, my body has been off. But my sleep over the past couple of weeks has been messed up anyway. So it’s nothing new.

I did a bunch of work today, which was good. I’m excited about it and ready to complete everything later this week. We’re getting Paddlefest stuff going again! Woot!

I also got to have a video chat with some fans from The Aux Cable. That was probably the highlight of my day! So much fun. ^_^

Packing up my stuff to relocate to Vancouver did not happen. I was overwhelmed and didn’t complete the mission. I’ll get it done tomorrow.

That’s about it. Tomorrow will be really busy, so I’ll probably do another small update. But after that… I’ll write more fun stuff! Until then, goodnight and good luck.

M3

My nose.

It’s a love/hate relationship. My nose is causing me such problems right now. It’s hard to breathe, I’m constantly stuffed up, and I have to repeatedly blow my nose. It’s bleeding, it’s hurting, and it’s generally unpleasant.

Allergy season sucks.

Plain and simple.

At least I have a nose, though, eh? *shrugs*

M3

I’m up toobe sixteen now!

I was sitting here feeling uninspired to write. So I decided to count through my blog posts and when I realized that this post would be number sixteen, I flipped! Mentally. I’m toobe tired to physically flip right now. Plus there’s not enough space to do that here in my room.

There’s a podcast called The Inner Tube that I used to listen to all of the time. Over the course of the show’s run, several inside jokes have developed, and one of the most prominent ones is the phrase, “we’re up to sixteen now!” The hosts also turn anything that sounds remotely like “tube” into “toobe”, hence the title of this post.

So there’s that!

Let’s just do an update.

I’m still not doing completely well, but I am doing better. Some really amazing friends hung out with me in the past few days, and that’s helped. I am completely thankful for their time and love and I’m so blessed to have them as close friends.

I’ve been really pumped about making food again. A fact that is very apparent if you visit my Instagram feed! 😛 It hit me super suddenly yesterday when I woke up, and it’s still in me today. Although, today I lacked the energy to actually do anything super creative with what I ate.  Unless you count mixing peanut butter into the vanilla icing on a slice of cake. That was good!

One of my friends is forcing me to visit them this weekend, so I’ll be taking a short weekend trip in a few days. I’m excited about that! And I will see the doctor on Friday, which is a little overdue. But it’s happening. Yay for Crohn’s!

M3

Photographing a Toilet Paper Tube

So there I was, outside taking pictures of a toilet paper tube with rain falling. How did I get here? Glad you asked!

It was a normal day, much like any other day. It had been sunny and warm so far, and I was… doing stuff. I don’t recall exactly what I was doing, but meh. It’s irrelevant.

For some reason, when I saw a toilet paper tube on the floor of my bedroom I had a flashback to last spring. I was part of a wilderness first aid course and we were running a scenario. One of the groups had made a little friend for their patient. “To cheer him up and distract from the pain,” they told me.

It was made from a roll of gauze with a couple of sticks for arms and smiley face drawn with a sharpie. It was adorable! And for whatever reason, that mental image of Joey holding tightly to this adorable roll of anthropomorphized gauze jumped into mind. So naturally, I picked up the toilet paper tube, grabbed one of my own sharpies, and drew a face on the cardboard tube.

I imagined what the face on the tube would look like it the cardboard were to suddenly spring to life, though it was partly inspired by Junior Asparagus from VeggieTales. I set my new smiling toilet paper friend onto my desk and stared at it for a moment as I remembered the first aid course. The people with which I shared that experience. My friends from my hometown.

Later on in the day, it started raining. The lighting cast by the sunlight filtering through the dark clouds was giving a really interesting colour to the mountains outside, and a single thought ran through my mind. Picture time!

I snatched up my phone as my eyes scanned my room. My eyes met the gaze of my tube friend. I blinked, it didn’t. Then I grabbed it too and ran for the door leading to the back deck. The deck was covered, so I wouldn’t get wet, nor would the toilet paper tube.

My aunt came home while I was out there and saw me moving back and forth with my phone through the back window. When she opened the door to see what I was up to, I instantly jumped up, nabbed my friend, and hopped past her into the house as I called out, “just photographing a toilet paper tube in the rain!”

M3

I didn’t forget…

I’ve been thinking about this post all day and I still don’t know what to write. But as usual, something will come to mind once I just start writing.

Let’s do this!

I was recently given a keyboard! A musical one. And I was pleasantly surprised to see that it has MIDI ports, which means I can plug it directly into my computer. I’ve been wanting to get back into composing music and recording stuff for fun, and this will make it easier to do that. I’m so excited! It’ll be good to finish working on a couple pieces I started in March after my grandmother died. I don’t like leaving something incomplete. Oh, and now I can record some fun parodies and stuff for The Aux Cable! 😀

I was also given an accordion, which I still have yet to try out. In fact, I haven’t even taken it out of the box yet. I haven’t had the energy. But oh it’s gonna be so much fun learning to play that thing! I’ve always wanted to try one out, and now I have my very own. It’s brilliant!

Gosh. Can you believe that it’s already Thursday? I mean, it’s still technically Wednesday as I write this, but it’s basically over. It feels like the week just started, but nope. Maybe it’s partly because of Victoria Day which extended the weekend and gives the illusion of a quicker week? Nah. I’m talking nonsense. This is why I shouldn’t have a blog. I can ramble and talk a lot, as most people know. Or maybe I should have a blog, because then I don’t have to force my talking on anyone, yet more people have the opportunity to hear it! I mean read it. Pffftt, you get what I mean.

Actually, tonight I’m kind of quiet and not wanting to talk. Today’s been a very hard day and now I just want to watch TV, cuddle, and eat popcorn. I shouldn’t eat popcorn because of my Crohn’s, but I still want it. My family and I all want to see the new Pirates of the Caribbean movie this weekend and I’m considering getting a small bag of popcorn while we’re there. It’s been so long since I had popcorn and I really, really want to have some. Even a handful would be nice. And popcorn is kind of a necessity at the movie theatre, eh? Especially since popcorn is my most favourite food in the world. But now I can’t eat it.

Great… I’m gonna start crying again.

Okie dokie. It’s late and I want to stop staring at a screen. Well, I want to stop staring at this screen and get back to staring at the TV screen. I’m currently going through the new season of Grace & Frankie, which is quite fun! Plus I feel horrible and TV is easy to do.

Wish you were here.

M3