I have no clue what I’m doing right now.
The past several days have been a bit rough for me. Depression is lingering which is always—
Gah… I’ve rewritten this post several times already. I don’t know what to write and I don’t even know exactly what I’m feeling. After being sick for most of the summer, it has been great to feel normal physically as well as mentally. But now it feels like I’m going back in a way, even though my body is doing mostly fine.
I’m not gonna go on for too much longer as I really don’t know what to say. My mind is tired. I have a hard time pushing forward.
Maybe the most frustrating thing right now is that I can’t talk about everything that I’m thinking about—everything that’s going on in my mind—with just anyone. I haven’t been able to get a counsellor here in Vancouver yet which would help with that somewhat. The list of things that I have to do, though…is insurmountable. I mean, I know that I can do it even with all of this depression. I don’t think that’s the main problem.
That’s all I’m writing for now. I’ll keep thinking about this of course, but right now I’m wondering if I should publish this post.
It’s going up. It’s gone up since you’re reading this.
Hope you’re doing well, friends!